Just curious.. why is it always guys who already have girlfriends that are interested in me? I don’t know how many times I call up my sister telling her about the latest guy, and having to end the explanation with, “but he has a girlfriend.” I don’t even think they have actually feelings for me, they just want to get in bed with me. Jesse came over last night (if you recall, we’ve spoken about him before), the girl he stopped seeing me for is the same girl he just cheated on.. with me (not sex, by the way). What kind of sense does this make? Pick one or the other, man. I just can’t make up my mind about if I should feel bad or not, while I know it’s wrong to be with a guy who has a girlfriend (and I also feel like this is really bad for my karma), I also feel like it’s his choice on who he wants to be with and why should I say no to it because of her. Yea, if I was in her place, I’d hate me, but I’m thinkin’ it’d make more sense to be hating him. Fuckin’ conscience. Jesse is cute and all that business, but as far as trying to date him I think I may be done with that.
Right now, I feel so fed up with trying to be sweet and date the opposite sex that I have no true concerns about whether or not something is going to work out. They can come and go for all I care. No focus. Just doing what I want, when it feels right. Maybe something will pop up, maybe it wont. Blame it on the time of the season and having other, happier things, to look forward to.
By the way, it’s the first day of snow this winter!!
